It was Wednesday morning and I received
a text message from one of my radical brothers and he asks me to lead worship
to the liturgy cluster orientation on Sunday at SMX function 3 and without a
second thought I said YES!
Usually when I will lead worship ill
prepare for a week at ang unang ginagawa ko syempre eto yung pinaka importante
is to pray and ask God to give me the wisdom and the grace that I need and ask
the Holy Spirit to guide me.
Then after I prayed, papatugtugin ko
naman yung worship song na napili ko then I will meditate on it and reflect on
it.
The picture that you saw above is the
sample exhortations script na ginawa ko because after I listened to the song, I
will now start to write the exhortation on a piece of paper, kung mapapansin mo
marami syang bura kasi gusto ko when I lead worship, ma -squeeze ko yung main
message sa mga tao.
I want them to really focus on God, when
you lead worship,e it is so important na mag prepare ka ng exhortation mo at
ang usually na gingawa ko eh kinakabisado ko yung exhortation ko and after I
memorize I internalize it.
Then Sunday came. That time I just slept
for almost 1 hour kasi we have a friend in the church who was rushed to the
hospital due to mild stroke and we were there supporting, encouraging and
praying for his family.
That day I prayed to God to give me the
grace that I need, kahit na puyat ako na hindi ako ma rattle at kabahan pag nag
lead na ako ng worship and yes maraming beses na ren ako na-invite na mag
worship sa maraming tao pero every time that I will lead andun pa rin yung kaba
sa dibdib ko.
Alam mo ba kung anu yung number 1 na
kinakatakutan ng tao beside death? It’s the fear of public speaking!
‘Yan din ang fear ko but with God’s
grace I overcame it, pero tuwing haharap ako sa maraming tao andun pa rin
talaga yung kaba ko.
Then the moment came that I will now
lead worship at na nung time na yun grabe, I prayed and prayed and prayed
harder!!
“Lord ikaw na po ang bahala , alam ko na medyo hindi maganda
pakiramdam ko ngayon pero alam ko ikaw ang gagalaw dito”
When I started to lead them into worship
my greatest fear happen, na rattle ko at parang na mental block ako sa sasabhin
ko!!
Tapos ang isa pang problem eh wala pa
yung LCD projector para sa lyrics ng kanta eh ang audience ko nun ay yung mga
nasa liturgical cluster eh medyo seryoso yung mga attendee nung time na yun
kaya nakadagdag yun ng pressure sakin.
Habang ni lead ko sila sa worship at the
back of my mind! “OMG palpak yung ginawa ko”, alam mo yun yung tipo na gusto mo
ng mag exit sa harapan dahil sa kahihiyan na nararamdaman mo!! (^_^)
I was really discouraged that time na
parang ang hard ko sa sarili ko nun at sinasabi ko sa sarili ko“Ang
pangit ng ginawa mo, Adrian!”
Parang ayoko na mag lead uli ng worship
dahil sa pangyayaring iyon.
Then the program ended and I was able to
survive that “embarrassing” experience for me at ang feeling ko, hindi ako naging effective that time and I
wasn’t able to serve them well and while I was walking outside the SMX to go
home meron akong nakasalubong and this guy is one of the attendee where I lead
worship and you know ano sinabi nung guy na yun?
It really shocks me!! Sabe nya “Bro
thank you sa pag lead mo ng worship na bless kami” and I just smiled to
him and said “thank you”.
Habang naglalakad ako nun, grabe hindi
ako makapaniwala na sa tingin kong pangit eh naging maganda sa ibang tao and it
hit me with a big message!
If You will do Your best God will do the rest!
Minsan tayong mga tao we only rely on
ourselves, we rely on our gifts, talents, power, money and fame at
nakakalimutan na natin tumawag kay Lord.
Minsan ang akala natin kaya natin lahat!
But Hey! We are only humans and we are weak and we will fall and fail!
Talagang magkakamali tayo because nobody
is perfect!
Pero if you will partner with God and if
you will really on His grace, magugulat ka na lang na gagamitin nya kahit yung
pinaka pangit pa ng parte ng buhay mo, it will still bless others! “Your
mess can become your message” sabi nga Bro. Bo Sanchez.
The bible says “And we know that all things work together
for good to those who love God, who are called according to his purpose” Romans 8:28
Lahat gagamitin ng Diyos,
yung maganda , yung pangit at maging mga masaskit na nangyari sa buhay mo!
Katulad nung nangyare
sakin na akala ko na pangit eh ginamit pala yun ni Lord to bless other because
I choose to surrender it all to God and this is not about me, this is all about
Him na kahit magmukha pa akong tanga sa harap as long as I bless someone out
there, I will not stop saying Yes to his call.
Today my message to you is
to start giving to God everything in your life , the good times and even the
bad times and let God do the rest to bless others and be surprised –His
blessings will chase you!
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